i am fearfully and woderfully made

be insecure no more
you are precious more than you could ask for

eliminate thoughts that are not forsooth
that is not how you were brought

every part of your being
is made by God and is captivating

turn to God and you will know
His love for you-overflow

oblivious you are no more
in His love be lure

open your heart to God
and experience the life-changing of His love

know how it keels and how it change you
you will be a wonderful person you'll never know...

WHAT GOD WILLS

I was break in two choices
Whether to do my will
Or to what God's will

I am afraid to do the latter
But more afraid not to obey the Master

In the cross I was delivered
Creating a relationship-He initiated
Obedience is all that He wanted
His calling must be responded

"But Lord", I cried, "I do not what and how
My Lord, lead me to avoid the foul
Bring me to a place
Where Your name will be praise

O Lord, forgive me
In expressing I often fail to frame
I'm afraid to disgrace Your name
Help me Your salvation be proclaim

My Lord, my Lord, the moment I plan to back-out
Keep my feet, may Your presence be standout!

If I lack the courage
Leaving me in the edge
Take me, O Lord
Feed me with Your Word

This duty I am new
The knowledge I have are very few
Teach me O God what will I do

My Lord, I need Your guidance
I need Your Words for the assurance
Keep me on the go
And lead me where to go.."

me and my dorm mates...

we are seven in one house, with four memebers one room and three on the other . me, vannissa, rosephine, benjie, fritzy, aubrey, and josil-vy.

my dorm mates call me "metoi". i don't know why they gave me that pet name. it's kinda "ewww" but i found it cute.hehe. well, whether i like it or not, they will call me anyway. on the second thought, i enjoyed it. it may not be "cool" yet different. i am a garrulous lass when happy but like a mouse locked in her cage when lonely, angry and depressed. my attitude is somehow annoying sometimes and you'd surely freak out when your barrel of patience is already full. so i'm warning you: don't bring a barrel when you're with me.hehe

vanissa or you can call her "bantoi". metoi and bantoi sounds close, right? i finally know why they call me "metoi", it's because they got the idea from bantoi. bantoi is bossy sometimes but she's generous. snob but kind. she's fun to be with, you would certainly laugh you heart out when you're with her. i sometimes loss my patience because of her bossiness, but as long as i can take it, i will take it.hehe.. unsa daw?..

rosephine a.k.a lac-lac, she's our big sister. oh my! this lady will certainly let you eat and eat until you're belly will bloat because of fullness.hehe.. she scold us when she found out we didn't eat our meal and scare us out until we decided to eat. that's how strict she is when it comes to food. that's why you don't have to wonder why we all increased our weight. i know what you're thinking, i'm not complaining, ok? another thing about her is she is very generous and kind. so i warned you when you first set your eyes on her face she's not that "maldita", ok? she may be looked like one but she's not. she's really nice, you just have to talk to her to know what i'm blabbing here.

benjie, but she's known by her nickname "bench"-it's a brand, alright. but wait till i tell you about her. and oh! her name is kinda boyish but it's the opposite-she's girly really. bench is the one we run to when we badly need someone. she's a good advicer and comforter. she has full of wisdom, we learned a lot from her. she's flexible, she's an expert on handling different attitudes. we enjoyed being with her.

fritzy, you can call her joy2. her true name is fritzy joy.hehe.. ate joy is a prim lady. she is intelligent, somewhat quiet sometimes, and a nice lady. she really, really loves to read books. she can take to read over night if the story interests her alot. ate joy got looks, brain, attitude, height and she's the girl of every man's dream. but beware: she already had a boyfriend.hehe.. p.s ate joy is a Registered Nurse.

jill, we call jing2. her name is aubrey jill. ate joy and ate jing are sisters. ate jing is an accounting student of addu. she is now in 4th yr, and it is already an accomplishment for an accounting students reached 4th yr. she loves taking picture, but her favorite is taking stolen shots, and her fave target is me.hehe. she loves to sing and dance. she is very studios. she study until midnight or 2am. she loves zac efron, and loves the high school musical movie. i really love to be with her, actually many does, because she is very nice. i seldom see her annoyed.

josyl-vi, aka jojo or Moojow..heheh.. she is really childish. she's kind, yeah. she is also fun to be with. she and ban2 were close friends or let just say, childhood friends coz they grew up together, attended same school, and now same course. she is very observant to foods. her nose is very sensitive, that makes her picky with foods. she's generous and nice.

me and my dorm mates living in one roof, with different attitudes but close to each other...hehehe

what my friends sees me...

life has been tough for this growing lady I've known. i had a bad impression for this maiden before, she seems like a silent-type person and living in her own world. then turned out that this damsel became a sister to me. she is so innocent in so many things that made her somehow look like a fool sometimes.hehehe.. people may misunderstood her for being herself, and in return she tend to please everyone even to the point that she also struggling in her own identity. this girl is bubbly when she's happy, yet an introvert when she's upset, lonely, even when she's angry. she deal things on her own with God's guidance, trying to gain her own independence. she loves stuffs that are nice and cuddly especially when it is colored with yellow. a pen and a notepad are her fave stuffs when she's upset and angry. this lass has the ability to make you fall for her just through her smile.hehehe.. she's a typical missy with a truly amazing personality. her name exactly characterized her personality: a special Rose that blooms during May.. -bench (dorm mate)


watch out for the name May Rose-a name so lovely as a Rose. everybody loves her like a fool, but she's always stay cool. she have nothing to discuss about. no doubt, she's not that kind of girl to let you play her out. for now, she don't need boy 'cause that will probably play her like a toy. she just want to have fun with her friends, and maybe that will stay till the end..-aithe ( friend since high school)


but who really May is?

I am Silent, Shy, Timid and Coward...


Silent- i sometimes found myself in the corner of the room, sitting alone. when i am not surrounded with friends, i am surrounded with my own thoughts. i am very fond in imagining things. since i cannot go to places i wanna go, i satisfy myself traveling through my own thoughts wandering in the places i dreamed to go.

Shy- when i am around with people i don't know or rarely know, i won't talk. after all, what will we talked about? i also have stage fright. my hands were cold and sweaty, my knees trembles, my face flushed, my heart beats faster, my words tatter-in short i am pretty nervous in front of crowded people.

Timid- well, what do you expect to timid people by the way? yes, what you think is right! i have no confidence, self-esteem is low and i don't believe in myself even to the potential i have.

Coward- oh my! i always let opportunities pass me by because i am afraid to show myself off. i am afraid to make mistakes and get hurt easily. questions such as: what if i cannot perform well? what if i fail? what would people think of me if i do wrong? what would happen then? filled my mind and manipulated me, keeping me from showing myself.

this is how i negatively see my self. wait for the transformed May, soon..

i want to meet you my friend..

I Found a Friend

through JESUS

He is a very nice Person,

He listens to me all day long,

He let me talk and talk

And sometimes I crack jokes.

He won’t mind if I act childishly

Or even have my tantrums suddenly,

He understands me fully

I adore Him, absolutely!

When I am in sorrow

At that moment He will know,

Even though I didn’t tell

He’ll just say, “ You don’t have to do so”.

He’ll give me a comforting tap

And say, “ Oh, come on! Cheer up!

You don’t have you worry anything,

Just tell me and trust me for everything”.

Gosh who?..

AITHE

I have this Lady
She’s really Charmy
But not that Sexy
Yet so Hotty.

Don’t conclude that she’s Flirty
‘Cause she’s that Girly
Who’s really Friendly
To those who are Cutie.

Don’t ever think of Competency
‘Cause she’s my Sweetie
Who acted Foolishly
Yet so Natty…