help me to overcome it..

my struggle..

I always found myself listening to other people’s concerns, like struggles in life, problems and worries. I always found myself lifting them up, encouraging them, and comforting them. Yet when it comes to me, I always found myself sitting alone at the corner of the dark room-not relating my experiences to others. No one knows the 98% of my struggles, problems, worries and heartaches, but the 2% of it-just the basic part of my experiences.

Why I found it arduous to open up myself to others, yet so easy to listen to other people’s openness? In fact I enjoyed it.

I came from a family not open to each other’s lives. Keeping my self-isolated from them is what I always did. Locking my self-alone in my room is the best way and place I could think of to express my true self and my feelings. Reading is my all time favorite past time since I started to read the first letter of the alphabet. Sharing is out of my system, being open is not one of my qualities. No doubt I grow up quiet and shy. When I am alone I pour all my time in writing, reading or imagining things I wanted to happen in my life.

I used to live a lonely life. I can bear to live a day without saying a word. I sealed all my secrets in my heart. I have no conscience in sharing when everybody does. Not even a twinge of guilt felt.

That’s me, and I kept that attitude over the years of my life, and somehow until now. Nevertheless, always wished I can open up myself to someone (except Jesus, I always did that to Him, however, it seems different if I can open it up to the person sitting in front or beside me), not withholding a bit. Every bit of my story will be told. I want to get out from my nutshell and be free. I want to experience the feelings of sharing my life. I wonder what the impact would be inside. I also yearn to show my self to the world who I really am.

As for now, I’m still struggling from my dilemma. Praying that the Lord will give me strength to fight this hesitation I felt inside and be bold about myself.

A Love Letter from GOD

My Child,

You may not know me,
but I know everything about you.
Psalm 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up.
Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways.
Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.
Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image.
Genesis 1:27
In me you live and move and have your being.
Acts 17:28
For you are my offspring.
Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived.
Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation.
Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake,
for all your days are written in my book.
Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth
and where you would live.
Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother's womb.
Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born.
Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented
by those who don't know me.
John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry,
but am the complete expression of love.
1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.
1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child
and I am your Father.
1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.
Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father.
Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.
James 1:17
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.
Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.
Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love.
Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless
as the sand on the seashore.
Psalms 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you.
Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession.
Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you
with all my heart and all my soul.
Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things.
Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart,
you will find me.
Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you
the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires.
Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you
than you could possibly imagine.
Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager.
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you
in all your troubles.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted,
I am close to you.
Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb,
I have carried you close to my heart.
Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away
every tear from your eyes.
Revelation 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain
you have suffered on this earth.
Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you
even as I love my son, Jesus.
John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.
John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being.
Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you,
not against you.
Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression
of my love for you.
1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved
that I might gain your love.
Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus,
you receive me.
1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you
from my love again.
Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party
heaven has ever seen.
Luke 15:7
I have always been Father,
and will always be Father.
Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is…
Will you be my child?
John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you.
Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad
Almighty God

taken from:fathersloveletter.com